So I havent posted for a while, because i have been admitted to the hospital. I am suffering from anxiety attacks, and its something I need to do my best to combat in order to live a normal life again. So ill use this place to hold my thoughts regarding this goal as well.
Imagine being trapped in your body which is having physical pain, and not being able to escape it in any way. Thats how anxiety feels, and its really mentally draining on top of things. The “cure” for it, is being alot more physical active, eat healthy, psychological help and some medicine. This is what I will be doing from now on. If thats what it takes, ill gladly do so.
So I will be altering my lifestyle completely, which is not too scary so far, it might be sometime down the road, but not right now.
This also means that my schedule of finishing the CCNP by the end of february 2009, might slip somewhat. First of I need to reach a stable state, and I will take it from there. That doesnt mean I wont touch some material, because I certainly will, but it does mean that my focus will be on the health just as much.
I will also be ordering some self-help books, that might get my mind thinking right about this whole thing, got a few things waiting in my amazon shopping basket. I will comment more on them if I end up ordering those certain titles.
Anyways, thats it for now. Will try and update shortly.